I am so thankful for God's Grace and Mercy. How beautiful they are and how much I have seen them working in my life lately. I'm at a point where I feel like I'm making so many mistakes. I'm fighting my flesh in ways I wish weren't a thorn to me. I wasn't warned when coming down here that satan would be attacking me times 80 billion. I know that's not something I needed warned of because it's an obvious. Learning to hear God's voice in the quieter times so we can also know how to recognize him amongst all the chaos is so important. That's what I'm learning right now. I'm making a lot of mistakes, but I'm thankful for the Holy Spirit and His constant nudge at my heart. I'm also thankful for the amazing mentorship I have surrounding me. I have also made some wonderful friends, which is a huge answer to prayer. I still struggle with missing home and my amazing friends there, but I know I'm where God wants me, and I wouldn't give that up for anything.
My kids and teens at my apartments are amazing. Words can't describe the joy I get being around them, even if they are punching each other and me. I see small improvement each time I'm there in their attitudes. These are precious children who need Jesus. 2 of my kids had to watch their mom get arrested a couple of days again. I was thankfully there with them as it happened. How do you explain to children crying as their mom is being taken away that God is in control, and that He is Sovereign? My heart broke so so much for this family. A dad on drugs who doesn't seem to care much what happens to them. I almost put them in my car and took them home with me, but I couldn't obviously. I was required to call child protective services, which is a hard thing to do. please be praying for these children. I had a long talk with the girl last night (she is 13). She told me how she doesn't think she is a Christian, but she believes in God. She just doesn't like it when He makes bad things happen to her. Obviously we know that's not true, but this is how this girl feels as she struggles to watch her life fall apart. She and her brother are homeless, mom-less, and basically dad-less. These are all things I can't imagine dealing with, but that's a lot of these kids' world. There's a song by Mathew West called own own little world. I've heard it 1,000 times but have not really every paid attention to the words. The lyrics are amazing. There is a whole other world out there from the one I'm used to. A world where not everyone has food in their fridge, or has 50 Bibles on their shelf, or parents who care anything about them. A world I am starting to see that breaks my heart. I am so thankful God is in control, it just still comes down to me fully letting Him take it. Please be in prayer for all these kids I come in contact with daily. They are precious children who need Jesus